There’s a lot in life that I can be pretty indecisive about- little things. But I’ve always been very decisive about one big thing- when your heart’s not in it anymore, it’s okay to try a new path.
There are some people who seem born knowing what they want to do in life (or perhaps feel they “should” do), and they take that path, no questions asked. They know what they want and nothing’s going to change their mind.
I am not one of those people.
I’ve taken a lot of paths along my life, starting from when I was a little girl.
I was sure I was going to be a veterinarian (for cats, of course) or a marine biologist (so I could take care of the otters) or a teacher. Then I started playing piano and wanted to be a musician, playing back-up piano for Fiona Apple until I could start my solo career or open my record company (always thinkin big!) Then in high school I found videography and dreamed of going to film school to become a cinematographer. And in college in found poetry and wanted to move to the woods somewhere and become a poet and teach.
Yet somehow, when the time came to find my first full time job after graduating school, I found myself smack dab in the middle of a cubicle, answering customer service calls. So not on the “what I want to be when I grow up” list.
Almost as soon as I got the job, I changed my mind and realized it wasn’t for me. I was going to quit and go back to school to get a Master’s in writing, just needed to figure out hooow to paaay for it…. hmmm… so I started writing a blog from my cube in the meantime.
The blog surprisingly took off over a couple years, and the next vision I had was to grow that blog audience into a real full time job and become a shop owner! I started an online consignment shop and was able to quit my cubicle job, and move up to Portland! It was bustling and going fantastically well- so well, that it came to the point that I needed to hire help. But I just couldn’t take that next step because I realized over time, I didn’t really want to be a shop owner! I missed making and hated the management side of it all. So I changed my mind, and closed up shop.
Then I started an offshoot blog offering advice to indie business people- it was amazing and took off as well over another year or so. But I started to be pulled in too many directions, still also blogging at Modish 2-3 times/day for my bread and butter. So, I changed my mind and stopped writing the biz blog.
Then I decided I was sick of being trapped in the house all day long, glued to my computer, and wanted to incorporate “gettin’ out there” more into my job description. So I turned my fave hobby of thrift store shoppin’/estate sale hoppin’ into a business and opened up a vintage shop on etsy! After about a year (uh, I’m seeing a pattern here :) with my house being taken over by clothes racks and thrift store shopping feeling more like a job then fun anymore, I (say it with me!) changed my mind, and closed up shop #2!
That’s when I decided to change it all up! Change what I write about on my blog- make it personal. Change my whole business model- no more blogging for dollars, it’s relentless. I went back to the heart of what I know best.
Am I a flake for changing my mind so damn much and I should’ve just picked a skill and run with it? Maybe.
But in changing my mind, in following my heart, in pursuing every inkling and interest I’ve had, I’ve learned all these skills and have gone through the experiences that have led me to here: making a living that’s filled with creativity, fun, challenge and ease- doing something I literally couldn’t have imagined for myself as a kid, but I actually think it’s what I’ve always wanted.
We’re often taught to just grin and bear it, endure, stay the course. Indecision is seen as weak and undesirable. I think that’s why we can get terrified to make some of the changes we want to make in our lives- “What if I make the wrong decision?!? Oh, the horrah!”
So what if you do? You can always change your mind.
I choose a life of indecision, of experimentation, of staying open to experiences and a change in plans.
The awesome ability you have to change your mind at anytime is not one to waste. Take that step. Make that change. Do that thing. And if it doesn’t work, and you change your mind- you’ll figure out what to do next. Trust yourself!
Share your thoughts/tips/struggles around changing your mind on your blog too, and we’ll post a link right here for our readers to check out!
Rebecca from Patterned shares thoughts on committing vs. going with your gut!
Have you changed your mind about something but are afraid to act on it? How will you feel if you stay the course and see it thru til the end? And if you don’t? What’s a time you changed your mind on something for the better?
We’d love to hear your thoughts and stories around changing your mind! Do share, Mavens! :)